41 lessons8 modules

Still Breathing: A Catastrophic-Grief Survival System for Mothers Who Have Buried a Child

Build a life small enough to survive as you move from one human thing to food, panic, errands, work, quiet support, and living beside the pain.

Jessica Collins

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41 lessons across 8 modules
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For the mother who has buried her child and finds ordinary life impossible — build a survival system to keep breathing, function in small ways, and stop judging yourself for how grief looks.

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8 modules, 41 lessons.

01Bathroom, Shower, Food: The Bare-Minimum Survival System5 lessons

When Five Days Disappear in the Haze9 min

Sunday Beans, Tortillas, and Cheese: One Repeatable Meal9 min

Sit in the Shower with Your Clothes On If That Is What Works9 min

Your System Does Not Have to Look Normal10 min

Assignment: Build Your Bathroom–Shower–Food Plan11 min

02January 2nd: When Your Child Is Gone and You Are Still Here5 lessons

7:21: The Moment My Breath Was Sucked Out of Me8 min

The Shower: One Human Thing Inside Total Shock7 min

Why “Time Heals” Is Not the Truth8 min

Finding the Inner Strength to Carry What No One Else Can Carry for You9 min

Assignment: Choose Your One Human Thing5 min

03Turn Around and Go Home: Trusting Your Body Before It Breaks Down5 lessons

When the World’s Vibrations Are Too Intense7 min

The Scattered-Mind Signal Before You Leave the Driveway7 min

Why Fred Meyer Does Not Have to Be the Battleground7 min

Bringing the Storm Home Instead of Being a Hero in Public8 min

Assignment: Name Your Warning Signs and Safe Place7 min

04Afraid of the Dark: Living Through the Panic Wave5 lessons

Why I Stayed Awake Until 5 A.M. for Five Years8 min

When Grief Burns from the Inside Out8 min

Let the Wave Pass Before You Ask Yourself to Function9 min

Pulling Your Hair, Throwing Things, and Feeling Like You Are Losing Your Mind9 min

Assignment: Write Your Plan for Riding Out the Wave7 min

05Work, 7-Eleven, Home: Rebuilding the Smallest Possible Life5 lessons

The Clinic’s Three-Month Gift of Pooled PTO8 min

Putting My Head Down When Work Was the Only Thing I Knew9 min

Why I Shopped at 7-Eleven for a Year9 min

Go to Work, Come Home: A Routine Small Enough to Survive10 min

Assignment: Choose One Required Routine and One Safe Errand7 min

06Stop Telling Her to Calm Down: Protecting Grief from Shame5 lessons

Nobody Understood My Grief—and Therapy Did Not Work for Me9 min

Do Not Say You Understand If You Have Not Buried a Child8 min

The House Is a Mess Because Her Heart Has Been Ripped Apart9 min

Words for Explaining Panic, Hypervigilance, and the Need to Leave11 min

Assignment: Write Your Boundaries for Unhelpful Advice10 min

07Sunday Beans and Clean Sheets: Building Quiet, Predictable Support5 lessons

Support Is Not the Same as Trying to Fix Her8 min

Dishes, Laundry, Clean Sheets, or Quiet Company9 min

Be Available at 3 A.M. Without Questions or Judgment9 min

Show Up Next Monday Whether or Not She Says Thank You8 min

Assignment: Create Your Quiet-Support Script and Safety Net10 min

08Still Breathing: Rearranging Life Around the Pain6 lessons

January 2nd Never Becomes an Ordinary Day9 min

Time Does Not Remove the Pain; It Teaches You How to Live Beside It11 min

Carrying Shalae Without Pretending to Move On9 min

You Are Not Too Hard to Love11 min

From the Shadow Girl to the Mother Still Standing12 min

Assignment: Complete Your Catastrophic-Grief Survival System16 min

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Jessica Collins

Every lesson in this course is drawn from Jessica’s own story — told in their own words, and built to walk you through the same path.

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